Life's been good. My dad keep talking about playing it safe and staying out of trouble. My mother doesn't know anything, all she does is scream and jump whenever something happens. My dad is really understanding; might be because he had gone through it before you know. Living the life of a teenager, doing stupid things just because its fun. Then you look back and laugh at yourself for being such a bitch.

I"M GOING HONGKONG WITH MA FRIENDS how awesome. maybe i can go visit my uncle and get free shirts. They own some simple shop in the street. It'll cost 750 including accomodation. I have 140 in my bank, maybe my parents can pay 300bucks. The other 310 ill have to figure it out some how. I need to get my creative juices together and sell something. I'm good at this, i tell myself.

Ahmad plz don't be so mean to joseph anymore he's really a nice guy.

I just borrowed foo fighters skin and bones LIVE. I DIDNT KNOW DAVE PLAYED FOR NIRVANA. fucking talented. wish i had his facial hair and his bone structure. fucking love the part where he plays "best of you" alone of stage. you can feel his energy @£$!@$@!£!@!£!!@!@!!!!

Some people are just out to fuck your life. They don't care if you're a human or an animal; they don't treat you like one. I want to set these people on fire, stab them a million times and and rip their organs apart

I miss wearing green shorts to school. Fuck the weather, damn bloody humid and sick. Skid row is stuck in my head. Everyday is exactly the same. Hate sleeping late, dread waking up early, dislike canteen food, love the booksho Aunty. im gonna stay off fast food for good, its addictive. I wanna go thailand by train at the end of the year. I'm gonna stay home to study tmr.  I like my curly hair, some say its ugly but i don't give a fuck. Facebook sucks because they can't process this shit personality test thingy. I don't wanna get depression, everyone around me is seriously ill. They all hate life but let's just  get over it. I can't tolerate noise, classroom is always so fucking noisy. The more things change, the more they stay constant. Let me stagnate.

"It didnt matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls but only that we had loved them, and that they hadn't heard us calling, still do not hear us, up here in the tree house, with our thining hair and soft bellies, calling them out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time, alone in suicide, which is deeper than death, and where we will never find the pieces to put them back together".

The Virgin Suicides

Sorry

Two more weeks to end of june. Hate losing control of things! Hopefully i'll be productive and study efficently. I met two Pinoys ystd and it was bloody awesome. Apparently they can hold their liquor damn well; the older one had to remove her gall bladder because it died due to her drinking habits. hardcore xiol. And im very sad because i didnt get to catch Ettiquete at dome, tickets had sold out already. Mr Khoo had some stupid 4 generation gathering so i went over and it wasnt really fun but i got to know a couple of guys from chs. They're all so old already, 17 sounds alright but 20 is fucking old. I don't wanna grow old! and X is quite annoying because he always doesn't share his convo when u obviously know it involves you. I've been away at camp for the past week and i feel like dying because i always feel lethargic and tired. I decided to set up a twitter account because i was bored. My leg is aching terribly. I wanna be young.

 I just downloaded relapse and its amazing! he raps about his life and his son, and thats what every rapper does. rap about their dead mum, how fucked up their life is, how poor they are, how they turn into a celebrity overnight. fuck ambitious people who dream big. Hate weather. Can't wait for my exams to end. It hasn't even started but i don't really care.

I feel so mechanical. Volleyball starts tomorrow, hopefully we win something. The weather is so hot i wanna fuck the sun. Its baking mother earth and i hate it. I screwed up my thousand-dollar interview. Who's more important? School's getting busy, work's coming in, life sucks.

"Sometimes you have to loose everything before the penny finally drops,or  whatever. So here's what I figured out. We're not evil sinners or perfect knock offs of god. We let the world tell us weather we're saints or sex addicts. Sane or insane. Heroes or victims. Weather we're good mothers,or loving sons. But we can decide for ourselves. As a certain wise fugitive once told me,sometimes its not important which way you jump, just that you jump."

Choke

Atonement was an awesome read, i finally finished it. Bloody exhausted from the training runs and drills, everything's getting more intense.

anw WHO WANTS TO GO NINE INCH NAILS W ME!

Yay i sold strawberries on valentines day (exciting!!) my seniors in volleyball are very nice to me so im very happy. I hate the fact that my school is so far away, why can't it be somewhere near. My class is awesome because we only have 19 people. My class rep loves to talk. I dont like bbq because u have to wait for the food and nobody really eats that much so i ended up really hungry on the bus. I eat moderately but i always seem to eat so much more then others. I'm eating cold hard rice now.

I HONESTLY THINK I HAVE HYPERHIDROSIS.I SWEAT INCREDIBLY ALOT, especially on the palms and feet. The net says if its bad then i'll have to cut off my sweat glands. i have two ulcers in my mouth and its terrible, you can't eat properly and i really want it to go away. Ahmad is a fucking sick bastard, he likes to play with insects.

Happyfucking chinese new year. I want to fucking kill all the artists and singers who came up with annoying chinese new year songs. Its the same track every year. Step into the fucking store and all you hear over the mini speakers are draggy old chinese new year tunes. Bitcomet is the best thing on earth , seriously. Its running so many downloads now its driving me insane. You want Killers, you get Killers. You want Kanye they give you Kanye.

i just finished Choke and its making me dizzy from trying to figure out who got raped and who are the deluded ones. My dad just bought a china touchscreen phone for 200bucks, how cool. And i seriously think we all have hidden tendencies to stalk people.

Happy birthday ahmad! School starts on 2nd february, screw the early mornings. Im so use to sleeping when everybody else is waking up. I lay on bed and hear alarm clocks ringing,  people slamming their gates shut, the pistons in the car moving, tires easing out of the carpark. I flip and turn on my bed, and the next thing i see is the sky turning pale white. (Pray that school won't be bad) Spent the night over at brian's house ystd night and we watched explicit films.  Weiping bought sissy ck trunks. I had fun with justin cuz we kept poking each others ass, and he gave me a beautiful gift so thankyou very much justin kaur. I bought new spectacles but they get me dizzy so i have yet to wear them. I ate chicken stew for 2 days in a row. Would it be easier if we could scrape out awkard and weird out of our lifes? Wouldn't it be easier if people had no choice as to whether they should say what they really meant?

I feel heavy and weird. I had three dreams in a fucking night.

Death of a salesman

Biff : No! Nobody's hanging himself, willy! I ran down eleven flights with a pen in my hand today. And suddenly i stopped, you hear me? And in the middle of that office building, do u hear this? I stopped in the middle of that building and i saw - the sky. I saw the things that i love in this world. The work and the food myself, what the hell am i grabbing this for? Why am i trying to become what i don't want to be? What am i doing in an office, making a contemptuous, begging fool of myself, when all i want is out there, waiting for me the minute i say i know who i am! Why can't i say that, willy?

Happy birthday weiping, i think you love my present alot cuz its very cool. i hope you lose the cheepeng war. I dont really like to talk to you online, always away and fucking dead either playing your god damn assasin's creek or surfing lesbian porn. Yay we finally had a picnic after so long, the weather was awesome the other day. Ahmad is enrolling in a flight school; lets hope he can make it through. Its  annoying to hear shit thats untrue so fuck whoever is saying shit. Fuck insecure bitches, fuck cunts who speak like they own the world.

I went for a one-day kriya yoga course on sunday and it was bloody enlightening. I became friends with this guy who is old enough to be my father. Happy 2009.

of Montreal, USA
15 Mar 09, Sun, 7.30 & 10pm
Theatre Studio $48
Admission only for patrons aged 18 years and above

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